Finding......comes before doing and reading. And a poem

Speaking of To Do lists. Mine seem to begin with "Find" at the moment. Last week reading iHanna's post about trying to let go of her blog and get some real writing done; a thought suddenly flashed through my mind that somewhere, there's a poem I wrote, a long time ago, about wanting to write. I know it's on a sheet of paper, but where is that sheet of paper?

My visual memory throws up a flash that it was once a folded bookmark in Natalie Goldberg's Writing Down the Bones. Ah. Maybe. But where's that book now? So before I forget, I put it on the to do list. And then there's the voucher for a free Massage that I need before I go on holiday. Add that to the list. Ah, yes and those two cakes I need to bake, but where is that wonderful recipe book that came free with the newspaper? So much to find, before I get to "To Do".

So I sat down to read a book; really getting into it I was, and then images flash into my mind. Writing Down the Bones is right on the top of the book shelf, and the Baking Book is under a pile of cookery books in my kitchen. Dropped riveting book and went immediately to find my lost "sheep". And there they were.

Now what do "I Do" first, bake or cancel? Or "find" the massage voucher? Or write.....

Here's the poem that's on that poor piece of paper.

Wanting to Write....

Wanting to write

you've a feeling of 49 percent

the prompting of guilt

wanting to write

you're hanging suspended

in silence before thunder

your don't breathe and you can't hear

wanting to write

you go for the warmth of wood

in the familar kitchen

carpeted with heather

and damp grass

wanting to write

in the brown desert

you worry about the ducklings

the eggs cracking, the placentas

wanting to write

you lack rigidity

you let yourself go

crooked, fractured

in the wash-house like a stage set

over its dark edges you

send your working cries

wanting to write

your body is laughing

you survive and emerge

with rotary blades

whirring at your heels........

And another "To Do", remember to collect together all my "bits" of writing and poetry and keep in one place, so I can "Find" them!